Back on track!

Hello!

Today's food:

Breakfast
- Two slices of Molenberg (toasted) with peanut butter.

Lunch
- Two sandwiches (!!) - one with shaved smoked chicken, tomato, lettuce & cucumber; the other with just tomato, lettuce & cucumber.

Dinner
- Butter chicken made by Jess (a small helping, because dinner was after spinning & I didn't feel that hungry)

Snacks & Drinks
- Four pieces of Cadbury Black Forest Chocolate
- A glass of Lift
- WATER. IN. HUGE. AMOUNTS.

So, I ate a lot of bread today. It was weird. Peanut butter probably wasn't the best choice for my toast today, but I reeeeeally wanted it. I ate two sandwiches, because Matt makes the BEST sammies ever.
The chocolate & Lift are nooot so good. I randomly had a huge craving for Lift, & chocolate is always on my brain.

I went to Spinning today. Usually on Mondays we have Jeremy & on Wednesdays we have Erica. Jeremy usually focuses more on sprints, & Erica tends to incorporate more hill climbs into the class. Well, Jeremy couldn't make it today, so Erica took it. I NEARLY DIED. Everyone did. She kept coming round class & turning up everyone's resistance (I was kind of proud that mine was only turned up 1/2 a turn, & the lady next to me had hers turned up three or four turns!) & then kept telling us to turn it up even more. By the end of it, my pedals were literally barely moving.
I was sweating like a pig. So I hope that redeems any misdemeanours from today.

I need to buy scales, & pronto! I was looking at some Weight Watchers ones that calculate your body fat percentage & a whole lot of other stuff, but they are like $130, so I might just have to forgo the modcons.

All in all, an alright day. I did eat breakfast & lunch & dinner! While I did eat a couple of things that I maybe shouldn't have, I'm not going to beat myself up over it.

YAY
x

Oh crap.

Okay. Changes to be made:

1. ONE cheat day a week, within reason. Usually I fall into the trap of feeling like 'Oh it's Friday, it doesn't matter'. YES. IT. DOES.
   Although I must say, this weekend I was pretty good. I had sushi & frozen yoghurt on Saturday, & my mom made home-made pizzas (LOTS of veges, & no cheese - we ran out) for dinner.
   On Sunday: Home-made burger & chips, more sushi, 2 cupcakes. I guess that could have been considered my cheat day then :)
2. More calorie counting plz. I need to write down what I eat when I eat it, & then find the calories accordingly.
3. Get off your ass & do something. I fantasise about going for walks & runs. I want to go swimming. I don't do any of it.
4. Stop making excuses. Assignments aren't the end of the world, & you can work around them. I will hopefully get into a good routine over summer & that will continue to work for me next year at Uni.
5. Drink more water. Currently I drink hardly any. I drink quite a bit of tea, but it doesn't really occur to me to be thirsty. Wtf, I know.
6. Pre-plan. Pre-plan. Pre-plan. If you fail to plan you plan to fail.

Fear & self-loathing.

I am so angry and mad and disappointed in myself.

I have eaten so badly this week. It completely undid all of the healthy choices I made last week. & tonight? We just ordered pizza - one of the foods I have ZERO CONTROL around.

I have been really really sick, & really stressed about three assignments being due in. This has made me so lazy about food preparation & planning.
Combined with this is the fact that I have quit smoking - I haven't had a cigarette since Sunday night. No cravings or anything, but it is scientifically proven that it makes you hungrier & stuff. If I had actually planned healthy things to snack on when I did get hungry, it would be fine.

But I didn't.

I keep skipping breakfast, which means I'm hungrier all day, & tend to snack in the afternoon.
I haven't done any exercise because I have had no energy & no time! But I should have scheduled everything more effectively so that I did.

I am so angry. I have been dreading posting because I didn't want to really face up to it. But I have to. & I also have to start taking photos of what I eat because often I forget what I have actually eaten!

BUT in saying this, tomorrow is a new day. Next week is a new week. It doesn't all end here.

I have learnt important things this week. I can combat these things & make everything better.

♥

BAD HEATHER.

I can't really make excuses for not sticking to posting on here. Basically, I've had a super busy week with two assignments due in (I should really stop leaving things til the last minute) & lots of pressure PLUS I've been kind of tired because I've been staying up til odd hours working.

Food this week went a little something like this (I can't reeeeally remember everything!):

MONDAY:
♥ NO BREAKFAST.
♥ A banana!
♥ -dinner- (I can't remember what.)

TUESDAY:
♥ Mashed up banana & cinnamon for breakfast.
♥ Pot of tea.
♥ Fish, egg fried rice & carrot, zucchini & brocolli.

WEDNESDAY:
♥ NO BREAKFAST.
♥ A chicken & relish sandwich from a cafe at uni.
♥ A nectarine.
♥ Steak, potato, zucchini, carrot & brocolli.

THURSDAY:
♥ 1/2 cup muesli with 3 tablespoons light vanilla yoghurt.
♥ Salad sandwich (lettuce, tomato, avocado) & one triangle of Laughing Cow Cheese.
♥ Chicken & pasta with peas, broccoli & carrots.
♥ 3 or 4 vodka, lemon & limes & one soho & lemonade! (Anita, Matt, Esjay & I went on a mini bar-crawl!)

FRIDAY:
♥ 1/2 cup muesli with 3 tablespoons light vanilla yoghurt.
♥ Half a carrot cupcake (it was really dry & I wasn't that hungry).
♥ Sushi - half salmon & half chicken teriyaki.
♥ Roast beef w/ potatoes, pumpkin & carrots.

& I am going to have a Turkish Delight Ice-cream bar. THEY ARE SO AMAZING, I love them. Fridays are hard for me, I get into the weekend mentality, probably because I don't go to Uni. Anyway, the Turkish Delight Ice-cream bars are amazing, & kind of low in calories. (I checked: 183 calories per delicious bar, not bad.)

In positive news, I have lost around 2 kgs this week but I'm not sure b/c I have been so distracted I haven't been weighing myself/I can't remember exact figures.

w/ ♥ Heather

Weekend.

Didn't take photos of stuff this weekend :(
BUT: lunch at Basalt with jard (♥) on Friday = Chicken salad (FUCKING AMAZING) & lots of drinks (oops).
DINNER w/ my mom & Matt at The Elephant (favourite Thai restuarant ever). Starters (little & hardly any but probably quite bad) & a measly amont of Pad Thai because I was so full!
More drinks.

Saturday:
Sandwich w/ left-over chicken salad from Basalt & two leftover Portobello mushrooms! It was leftover central pretty much.
A few finger snack things at Ryan's 21st.

Sunday:
CRAP. lots of crap. A new milo bar, lollies & a slice of cheesecake (my mom bought it specially for me & i felt bad saying no). & leftover pad thai! but hardly any was left because someone stole some! Totally my cheat day.

I really need to start eating three meals a day w/ healthy snacks instead of just eating when I'm hungry. The problem is on weekends I hardly ever actually wake up early enough for breakfast (lol) & I'm never hungry for the first few hours after I wake up, so lunch usually goes out the window.

I feel pretty good with the choices I did make though!

w/ ♥ Heather

Meal Ideas: Portobello Burgers

Marinade portobello mushrooms in an olive oil/balsalmic vinegar blend for at least fifteen minutes on each side (start with the smooth side up).

Place them in the oven/barbeque them/grill them for around 10 - 15 minutes.

Eat in place of a burger patty!

They are actually really good. Apparently portobello mushrooms are the steak of the vegetarian world. They are dense & absorb flavour so beautifully.

I didn't take photos :( I was super hungry & I kind of forgot.

But I had a burger with a portobello mushroom, a little bit of cheese, iceberg lettuce & a gherkin. On the side I made potato & kumara wedge/chip things. Chop them up & roast them in the oven after drizzling olive oil over the top & sprinkling salt & basil to taste.

YUM.

I think the burger came in at just under 200 calories. My counting might be a bit off though cuz I'm not sure of the quantities of some things I used. But that tasted way better than McDonalds & it filled me right up & it was much healthier!

Life Overhaul.

Basically, I am unhappy with my lifestyle & how I look as a result of this.
I haven't been superhappy with myself for a while now, & I know why I am set in these patterns. But I really want to change it & turn my life around.
Let me be clear: although changing my appearance through weightloss is important to me, but I am also concerned about my health - diabetes, heart disease etc.

So this blog is pretty much an accountability thing. I will probably be less likely to eat shit if it means I have to post it up here, & I will probably realise that I eat more crap than I think. I will see patterns that I didn't know I had fallen into. Hopefully I will also face & combat any problems/patterns I have & be able to overcome them completely.

Goals:

• Get into a healthy weight range according to my BMI
• Eat healthier food/pick healthier food options
• Drink more water
• Exercise more

I think I'm going to try to take photos of what I eat throughout the day & put them up here, a la http://angiealltheway.blogspot.com starting with dinner tonight! I am really excited about it.